是这样吗？

爱情走到尽头，应学会放手。

苦苦守候的一份爱情不见得就是最后的结局，放开它你同样能获得幸福。

i miss being single

seriously....do i have the time to manage a relationship now???sigh, it feels weird...every time i called...hoping somebody to listen to me, listen to some happy news ..but ended up i have to listen to her problems and try to solve it...complains...problems....family matters....i have my own issues too....i need to deal with my life alone here...so far away...no understanding...i have no idea where will this leads to...very irritating...wanna concentrate in my working life...so that i can come thru this 2 years in SGH...i would not want to end it just like that...but it's triggering me all the time...i don't know what to expect...haven't been to this kind of situation...i miss freedom a lot..i miss being single...need no to be responsible for anyone...need no to make promises that it's so hard to keep..need know to remember some special occasion...work consume most of my time...and i do not want any more pressure...but can i face all the obstacles and challenges myself? i wish i can..i hope i can i might manage too....just do not feel like handling a relationship now...sharing problems? it is testing our relationship now...she's insecured...i'm not in the mood...no idea what to expect next...and i haven't see our future yet.....sigh~

depress

haven't been here for a very long time..and now this is the only place i can spit it out..why don't u share it with your family or girlfriend? i have no idea...just don't like to...used to keeping stuff to myself and fix it me own....day 8 of tagging in the medical field, 1 of the most depressing day in my entire life..i am holding it tight, i am trying my best to cope with wateva facing me but the results are depressing...i have doubt on myself whether i can save a patient's life...my brain is just not functioning...i can't think, the knowledge tht i learn in university i have put them into the dustbin,i cant apply my knowledge into practice...why is it so?even if i know tat i'm knowledge deficit..i want to catch up but where's the time?sigh...helping colleagues as if i'm their male nurse, instructed uncleared info makes me run here n there...i hope that the 4 pints of blood,6 FFP and 4 platlets can save your life...at least my struggle worth it...another colleague of mine commented on my action, she said that i can't just inform my superior for the life threatening signs...i must act on the spot to help the patient, i know that she says that for me good but it has translated into a depress statment in my mind...questioninig myself..i know nothing or i know something..this is what i choose and this is what i have to face and conquer now...just think positive...tomorrow is another brand new day...nothing is easy and the harder the things you acheive the more precious it will be...yes i must have faith to myself that i can complete the housemenship in SGH...just wanna hold real tight..i hope physically as well as mentally will bit fit to encounter the coming challenges...i might be the most junior now...but 1 day i will be the most senior of all....yes it needs time to achieve that..don;t like the feeling of being stupid or brainless....wat else to say?we shall see abt tmrw..i'm sleepy..it's time for my body to recharge..i hope mentally can recharged some how....just rememba tat positivity will be the key to success...just hold on tight and you will make it...and i can say i've made it...